I want to write something. There is an unusual urge to write today. It is like aimless wandering, one of my most inexplicable ways of meditation. You feel deeply absorbed in yourself when you aimlessly wander, on roads unknown, in places unseen. Exactly the same way when you take the pen in your hands and let it flow without bounds, then beautiful things come out. You write something which after completion seems new to you. And when you read that afterwards then that teaches many a new things to you.
I recall a line from a book which says that if you want to become a saint then you have to control six urges. It is said by Roop Goswami.
vaco vegam manasah krodha vegam
etan vegan yo visaheta dhirah
sarvam apimam prthivim sa sisyat
A wise and self-composed person who can subdue the impetus to speak, the agitation of the mind, the onset of anger, the vehemence of the tongue, the urge of the belly and the agitation of the genitals can instruct the entire world. In other words, all persons may become disciples of such a self-controlled person.
Roop Goswami was disciple of Lord Chaitanya. He was personally instructed by Him. He says that if a person can subdue the aforesaid six urges then he is eligible to become a guru. Seems so simple a path. Try practising it and you will realize that even after your entire lifetime, none of these urges are defeated by you. Why? Because the path taken to control them is wrong. Primarily, the way out is Bhakti, as told by Roop Goswami and others. But there is another marga. I really feel that that is THE way for people like us. It is deep thinking and thereafter the realization of the futility of these urges. Why should we speak if we are having an irrepressible urge? Is there really a need? What will I gain or loose if I do/don’t speak. Deep pondering over these issues will give you the realization and you will suddenly find yourself elevated. This is Gyana Marga.
atyaharah prayasas ca
jana-sangas ca laulyam ca
sadbhir bhaktir vinasyati
Bhakti is destroyed by the following six kinds of faults: (1) eating too much or collecting more than necessary, (2) endeavours which are opposed to bhakti, (3) useless mundane talks, (4) failure to adopt essential regulations or fanatical adherence to regulations, (5) association with persons who are opposed to bhakti, and (6) greed or the restlessness of the mind to adopt worthless opinions.
The line which catches attraction is ‘useless mundane talks’ and ‘restlessness of mind’. Krishna says that to control your mind is tough but that has to be done if you really want to elevate in your life. If you want to be a superior creature tomorrow than what you are now, then you have to uplift yourself spiritually. Each person may have his own ways of doing that. But the point remains that that is the top priority. And for that you will have to speak a little less and think a little more.